So much has happened over the course of a few months with me. Where do I begin this entry ? My impending divorce? Moving to NYC? Bigger boobs? The first two changes I’ve already mentally processed, but I was unprepared for the change that my body is currently experiencing!
Bra Size 36H
Holy melons! I’ve always been slightly top heavy and to be honest, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed my endowments. They’ve gotten me many dates, marriage proposals and money so these melons have served me well. I’m not complaining about them at all, Just very surprised with my new look
I never new that at the age of 43, I’d be going through a second puberty! So far with new bras, the backaches are manageable. I’m not thinking of breast reduction yet. These jugs were bestowed upon me for a reason. I’ve meditated and manifested (I’m a witch for those of you who are unaware) for more cash, then literally a week later my boobs grew bigger.
How do I plan to use my larger assets?
For financial gain of course lol. Bras are expensive and these puppies have to help pay for themselves.
I know that you’ve seen the silent rebranding and me posting less often on Social Media so I’m going to be true to you. Yes you’ve heard correct, my husband and I have decided to go our separate ways. Hotwife Viv Is getting a divorce.
Is The Non-Monogamous Lifestyle The Reason For The Split?
Not at all. We have simply grown apart and it’s time to move on. Unfortunately, I’m now part of the Nation’s statistics were the majority of marriages fail. This is my second marriage, so I’m fairly certain that the odds for a long lasting union were pretty slim anyway.
Is Mac Valentine The Reason For Your Divorce?
No, my husband and I had issues way before I met Valentine. As much as I respect and adore Valentine, he has absolutely no blame or cause in my marriage failing.
Will You Keep Blogging?
Yes I will keep blogging. Writing my thoughts down has been therapeutic for me and I have so much excitement in my life to share with you all. Also, I need this blog to stay connected with my large cock studs 😉
Will You Ever Remarry?
I don’t want to say that I’ll never remarry, but the odds of a third trip down the isle are pretty slim. Making long lasting life decisions right now isn’t a great idea for me anyway. .
Where Do I Go From Here?
I’m going through a major life shift and still trying to figure out who I am and how to move forward. I’ve been in a marriage (I’ve now been in two) since I was 19 years old. Being a single woman is foreign to me. I’m excited and scared at the same time. Adjusting to a new normal is never easy. It will all work out in the end, at least that’s what I keep telling myself.
What prompted our first livestream?
We both have our individual chaturbate accounts and planned to stream together sometime. laying in bed together at his place , I suggested that we both submit joint verification information Incase it took awhile for approval.
To our surprise, the approval was within an hr or two so we went ahead with the live broadcast .
What was it like having sex In front of hundreds of people?
During our first Chaturbate live sex show , I felt a bit nervous but also a thrill that I’ve never experienced before. The nervousness was simply the result of trying something new. I had no idea what to expect.
I got over the nervousness very quickly when Mac gave me the look and whisper that he wanted a blowjob. Somehow, I forgot about the audience when he was in my mouth because I was focused on pleasing him.
After he had gotten rock hard he got behind me and we started fucking doggystyle. I looked up for a brief second and saw the chat room filling up , I felt myself getting wetter and more excited!
Mac was being the moderator and chatting with the audience. People were mostly saying that we were a sexy couple, they loved my titts (he would reply “ I do too”) . He showed me off in a sexy way, letting the audience know how good my pussy felt .
In that moment, I felt like his personal pornstar and him my stag. Mac was sharing me in a chat room filled with hundreds of men and I lived every minute of it. I can’t wait until next Tuesday morning, at 8am !
What’s hotwifeviv and Mac Valentine been up to?
Let me begin by wishing you all a Happy New Year. I’m in the process of making a few updates to this blog. For right now (until further notice) , my clips will be primarily on my Only Fans Page and you can search for me (hotwifeviv) on Many Vids so my apologies to you for the clips4sale inactive links .
Why I used to freeze up when that camera was pointed at my pussy?
Mac and I are going at it hot and heavy, even somewhat primal. He then gets the phone and opens up the camera. Suddenly I’d suddenly freeze up. I never understood why . I’ve done erotic photoshoots, dirty talk and can easily write about sex. Somehow pointing that camera to my pussy, made me suddenly feel unsexy and freeze up. We both realized that we had to take a bit of time to work on my nervousness and do a bit of “POV training”.
This afternoon, I had a wonderful long chat with my first husband (I’ve been married twice). We reminisced about giving birth to our first child almost 20 years ago. Immediately, it all made perfect sense to me.
The spotlight and focus on my crotch area made me feel like a lab rat. The environment was cold and sterile. I was scared of what this child was going to do to my pussy and 4-6 people were in the room, including first husband who assisted me in holding my legs back to push.
Somehow, pointing that camera with lights, focusing on that area temporarily brought back the same feelings I’ve had in the hospital delivery room.
How did we overcome my nervousness and finally get that POV Shot?
The POV training recently improved! Both of us upgraded our phones and began using normal room lights. Mac also begins by whispering sexy words of encouragement before grabbing the phone to film. He would say things like: ” Oh my God , look at that pretty pussy” , then tells me how wet I’m getting and how good he feels being inside me. To my surprise, I got into it and we have our first POV shot. I’ve posted it on my OnlyFans and the longer version in my clips4sale store.
So Mr. Valentine, Incase I’ve forgotten to tell you, you’re awesome and thanks for the POV Training.
Because I honestly prefer being naked, in bed underneath him…
I’ve finally set up my clips4sale store! So far 11 clips are listed and I intend to create more. This whole journey has taught me things about myself that I was totally unaware of. The main things that I’m learning are that: I can perform sexual acts on camera , I prefer to film with a sexual partner over recording a solo clip, I can only have sex on film with someone that I’m into.
I’m a fairly sexually open person, but having sex on film scared the hell out of me in the past. My main fear was not having complete control of my image. Everyone finding out that I get whiny during sex if it’s really good (strange I know) also scared me. Lastly, didn’t want the pressure of looking glamorous while getting down and dirty.
I now realize that I’ve been missing out on how sexy it is to have clips of an encounter for when my lover and I are away from each other.
The kind of recordings I’m into creating are of the kind of sex that I’m into. There will be no “performing”, just a sneak peak into his bedroom or wherever we decide to play.
If you enjoy what you’ve read and want more visuals, click on the clips4sale store banner on my links page right here : Links Page
For me, the meaning of ” I Miss You Sex” is: I want it here , I want it now. Hurry up and get your hand on me and put your hard cock inside me. I don’t feel hunger or anything else except sexual longing and excitementment.
We see each other every other week currently until we iron out our schedules, so that we can see each other more often. Because Mac is my only lover and he lives three hours away, I have lots of solo sex at home base. For me, solo sex is unsatisfying and makes me hungrier . So by the time I see Mac, even a sudden glance turns me on. The ” I Miss You Sex” tends to begin within the first fifteen minutes of my arrival to his place.
After about a three hour ride to NYC, I arrived at the station . A few minutes later, I spotted his platinum blonde hair, black lipstick and black leather studded collar. My heart begins beating fast with excitement and a bit of nervousness too.
We hugged, he takes my bag to carry it for a brief walk to the subway station and train ride to his place. Somehow the 30-40 min train ride felt longer than the 3hr bus ride. We eventually made it to his place, then to his bedroom. Then we dropped my bags to the floor and began undressing. Just as he promised in previous conversations, his mouth was everywhere and he was balls deep
For the next two days, it’s none stop fucking. The ” I miss you sex” was intense as it always is. We even managed to record a bit of it for my only fans page . I’m also working on a clips4sale studio which I’ll add later once I sort out the wifi issues .